This portrait, No Looking Back #5, is one of a charcoal series dealing with facets of aging, frailty, and dementia. The loss of remembering and thinking skills severely reduces a person’s capability to carry out daily chores, yet painful recollections can remain. When my elderly mother, with her disabilities, moved in with me several months ago, I started a series of larger-than-life-sized portraits of family and friends. All the drawings display the subject with eyes closed, showing internalization and self-reflection, yet viewers can comfortably absorb the scale without feeling that they are the ones being observed or studied. Within this portrait, as well as life itself, there is “No Looking Back”.
I remain concerned in the perpetuity of ‘time’. It exists of course, and it’s something we cannot stop. Life and ageing continues no matter, and capturing even a fleeting moment requires time in the implementation of its stillness. My work is an exploration in resolving issues of progression and digression of tempo. As the minutes tick by, we are subjected to continual alteration, and captives to the biological clock. Holding on to a moment, though impossible to do, is all we have that comes close to halting it. I’m hoping my art can, at least, slow it down a touch.